A Prayer for Divine Ownership

This is me, being in what I want. In the pain and the struggle of it. I’m sitting watching the sun set over the bay, and from this peaceful perch I can see it all with a clear head. I’ve asked for this and for this I’m grateful. I know these trials serve me. This…

Meeting Myself

After the whirlwind of Burning Man subsided, I realized that I had gone there to do just one thing: meet myself. I remember a conversation I had prior to Burning Man where we set our intentions for how we wanted to move through that playground, that lab. I remember fumbling for my answer, and then…

In dreams we are renewed

Waiting to board, she looked up through the airport windows. Her eyes met the fog, now an old familiar, but no less unique or magic. She rested on its wisps and mystery, let the beauty seep from the folds of mountains, through her pupils and through her skin, to wrap her heart in its embrace….

You must ask for what you really want

I’m being a perfectionist. After a month of entering “north oakland” and “berekeley” into the box under rooms/shares on craigslist, pouring over house photos, google maps and postings with phrases like “cozy collective,” “queer identifying,” and “family-style,” biking all over the east bay, meeting people at open-house potlucks and one-on-four interviews, turning down 3 offers…

note to self: give up

Give up. Give up all the ways you’re stopping yourself. Give up all the excuses you’ve given yourself to stall happiness. Give up the notion that you can’t have it all (or any of it), that you don’t deserve to discover the layers of your heart. Give up the fear that’s holding your hand, pinning…