Returning of the light – the 2017 Christmas Story

On December 7, 2017, the 2 year anniversary (to the day) of being mugged at gunpoint, my car was broken into for the 3rd time. I made the stupid move of leaving my bag (with laptop) in my car for 20 minutes in Temescal, Oakland. I came back to a smashed window and my bag,…

And that was the beginning of you tending to yourself.

My therapist asked me if there was a time in my life when I had been left by someone, and I missed them terribly, but was still able to stay with myself. A memory came to me of being heartbroken over a man named Alex. I was on my roof deck on 8th St in…

8 Ways Manifest, Using the Mundane and the Magical.

It’s the weight of a deep out-breath. It brings me into my body, lands me in my every cell. I feel muscles and skin and joints spread, befriending gravity in this expansive exhale.  The magic with which the last few months have unfolded have given me even more evidence that the fabric of reality is…

The Seduction of Daydreams – Why Positive Thinking is Not Enough

I notice this feeling I get when I daydream. It happens when I daydream about anything – more money, my next romance, the living situation I’m calling in, the car I will buy, my most perfect holiday plans, next summer’s adventures. When I dip into this reality in the dream space in my mind, I…

Declare your worth

The old Rumi quote “You must ask for what you really want” echoes in my head every time I’m going for something, or feeling a little timid, or uncertain about how things will turn out. It’s a reminder that I need to put myself out there and really stake my claim in what I want….

The parts of you that never left

Put it all down. That which you’ve been clutching like a last dying breath, let it slip through your fingers. Open your palms in reverence, in prostration to the unknown. Put it all down, let it fall where it may, and leave. Don’t look down, don’t look back. That which is meant to, will follow…

Small Bites

My heart is at it again. I woke up this morning with that familiar feeling of longing, the sumptuous indulgence of replaying certain moments from last night. I stretch and sink deeper under covers, lips curved at the thought of a hand on my back, a piercing exchange, the curiously familiar sensation of this new…

A Prayer for Divine Ownership

This is me, being in what I want. In the pain and the struggle of it. I’m sitting watching the sun set over the bay, and from this peaceful perch I can see it all with a clear head. I’ve asked for this and for this I’m grateful. I know these trials serve me. This…

note to self: give up

Give up. Give up all the ways you’re stopping yourself. Give up all the excuses you’ve given yourself to stall happiness. Give up the notion that you can’t have it all (or any of it), that you don’t deserve to discover the layers of your heart. Give up the fear that’s holding your hand, pinning…

Co-piloting with the Universe

Step 1: Name your dreams. Not your half dreams, not the dreams you think are within your reach, or the dreams you think you are worthy of. Dream with your heart. Dream as big as you love. Step 2: Thank the universe. Thank her for providing all that you need to fulfill these dreams. Thank…

ThetaHealing at the Airport

Traveling has to be hard. That was the thought that had been circling my head all morning, with the faint buzz of a fly that goes unnoticed at first. Now I’m standing in the Qantas check-in line, which hasn’t moved much in the last hour. With every minute that passes, the tension mounts, as air-bus…

What will it take to know my heart?

…and other musings about work… It felt like paralysis, like suffocation, like a stifling weight was placed on my chest every time I even thought about thinking. My procrastination bone is so clever, however, that it distracted me from all of that for weeks. If I just did something else, I could ignore those sensations….